That weekend felt perfect. No screens, no stress, just the five of us packed into a pedal boat, drifting across the lake like we used to when we were little.

The twins were goofing off in the front, trying to splash each other. I was stretched out in the back, half listening to their laughter, half watching Dad pedal with that quiet smile of his. But something was off.

He kept checking his watch.

Not once. Not twice. Constantly. Like he was racing something none of us could see.

“Dad, chill,” I finally teased. “You’ve got nowhere else to be.”

He smiled, but didn’t answer.

Later, after we docked, we walked up to the cabin Dad had rented. Nothing fancy—just one of those old wooden ones with the green shutters, the kind that always smelled like pine and a little bit of damp carpet. Mom had already started lunch, and Dad wandered off, supposedly to get firewood.

He took his phone. Left his water bottle. That alone was strange. He was a stickler for hydration, always pushing bottles into our hands growing up.

I watched him disappear into the trees. For a second, I thought about following him. But then my sister Nalini came out of the cabin with sandwiches and called us all to eat, and I let it go.

The rest of the day felt normal. We made s’mores that night, the twins told ridiculous stories by flashlight, and Dad sat by the fire with that same faraway look. I caught him looking at his watch again around 10:42 PM. That exact time. I remember because I had just checked mine too.

By Sunday afternoon, it was time to pack up. Everyone was tired, in that good way, sunburnt and full. Dad hugged us all like it was some big goodbye. Not a “see you soon” kind of hug—but the kind where he held on just a second too long.

He pulled me in last. Pressed his hand on my shoulder and said, “You’re gonna have to be the one who keeps them together.”

I laughed. “Okay, dramatic. It’s just a weekend trip, Dad.”

He smiled. But that same look passed over his face. Like he knew something I didn’t.

I didn’t get it until four days later.

That Thursday, right before dinner, Mom called me sobbing. I couldn’t understand her at first, just a string of sounds, gasps, and my name over and over again. My stomach dropped.

“Your father,” she finally said, voice cracking. “He’s gone.”

I thought she meant he had left. As in walked out. I waited for a “he’ll be back” or something. But then she said the words I never expected.

“He passed away this morning.”

I sat on the kitchen floor. Literally just collapsed. My partner, Nicu, had to hang up for me. I remember just rocking a little, back and forth, trying to make sense of it.

Dad had a heart attack in the parking lot of the grocery store. He had parked, sent Mom a text that just said, “Don’t forget the blueberries,” and then never made it out of the car.

He was 64.

What shook us even more was that apparently he’d known. Or at least suspected. He’d been to the doctor just a few weeks before and didn’t tell any of us—not even Mom. We only found the cardiologist’s report later, folded and tucked in a beat-up manila folder in his nightstand drawer.

High risk. Major blockage. Advised for immediate surgery.

And he… didn’t do it.

We were stunned. Angry, even. Mom especially. She kept going through the stages—first disbelief, then pure rage, then just this hollow silence.

“I could’ve convinced him,” she said one night, staring at his empty chair. “If I had known, I could’ve made him go.”

But deep down, I think she already knew why he didn’t.

He wanted that trip. That one last perfect weekend with all of us. No hospitals. No wires or machines. Just water, trees, laughter, and time.

The watch thing? I figured it out months later, cleaning out his garage. Tucked in an old cigar box was a list. Handwritten, dated a year ago.

“Things To Do Before August 12.”

That was the Sunday we left the cabin.

The list was small. Take family to the lake. Teach twins to make a fire. Give Leena the talk. (That’s me.)

There was a check next to each one.

I just sat there staring at it, tears blurring the ink. He had known all along. Planned it out, right down to the minute. That’s why he kept checking his watch—he wasn’t nervous about being late. He was trying to make every second last.

What tore me up was how quietly he carried it. No grand speech. No tearful confessions. Just small moments. Sandwiches by the lake. Stories by the fire. That lingering hug.

After the funeral, the grief hit everyone differently.

The twins started acting out—staying out late, failing classes. Nalini moved back in with Mom and took over all the bills, too proud to accept help. And me? I froze. Stopped writing. Stopped doing much of anything, really.

But then, about three months in, I got a letter in the mail. No return address, just my name in Dad’s handwriting.

Inside was a photo of the five of us on the lake, all sun-kissed and squinting. And a note.

“You don’t have to be perfect. Just show up. They’ll need you. You’re ready.”

That letter cracked something open. Not healed it—just let a little light back in.

So I started calling the twins every Friday, even when they ignored me. Kept showing up at Mom’s even when she barely spoke. I didn’t try to fix everything. I just made sure they knew I was there.

And slowly, things started to shift.

Nalini finally let herself cry one night, wine glass in hand, head on my shoulder. The twins got jobs—real ones. Not amazing, but stable. Mom even started volunteering at the library again.

A year later, on the anniversary of Dad’s death, we all went back to the cabin.

It wasn’t the same, of course. He wasn’t pedaling. He wasn’t there to make awful coffee or burn the sausages. But we were. And somehow, that was enough.

That night, as we sat around the fire, Nalini pulled something out of her bag.

“Found this in Dad’s office,” she said, handing me a notebook.

Inside were pages of letters—one for each of us. And a final entry.

“If you’re reading this, I’m gone. But don’t get stuck in the sadness. Go make more memories. I want you laughing. Loud. Around a fire.”

There was silence. The kind that hums with feeling.

We sat there for hours. And maybe for the first time since losing him, it didn’t hurt quite so sharply.

You never really stop missing someone like that. But you learn to carry them differently. Less like a wound. More like a compass.

Dad didn’t get more time, but he gave us everything he could with the time he had.

And maybe that’s the lesson.

Not every goodbye is loud. Sometimes love shows up quietly—in a shared sandwich, a checked box, a hug that lasts an extra second.

If you’re lucky, you’ll notice it in time.

If you’re luckier, you’ll pass it on.

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