When Yvonne held the test up over the sink, I was already counting OVERTIME in my head.
Nineteen weeks along, and the crib and the deposit came to sixteen hundred we did not have, so I took every Saturday route.
Then she went quiet.
Not angry quiet. The kind where she carries her phone into the bathroom and runs the tap.
Her sister Colleen moved into our spare room in March, and they stopped mid-sentence whenever I came down the hall.
I told myself it was the pregnancy.
On a Tuesday she came into the garage while I had the mower deck in pieces and stood there until I looked up.
“WHO IS SHE,” she said.
I said I didn’t know what she meant, and it sounded like a lie.
“Don’t.”
She went back inside. I sat on the bucket with a socket in my hand until the kitchen light went off.
That deck is still in pieces.
Four days later the men by the coffee urn went quiet when I clocked in. Stan held the door and looked at the concrete.
“You seen the lot,” he said.
The church rents out a message board on a trailer, and somebody had towed it to the mouth of our lot, facing Bardsley Road.
My name was up there in orange letters two feet tall.
Roland. Got your attention? I KNOW WHO SHE IS. Liar. Coward. Cheap. — your soon-to-be-ex wife.
I could not breathe.
Forty men on that shift read it before I did.
I have NEVER touched anyone but her.
She is carrying my son.
I drove home doing thirty, both hands locked on the wheel.
Colleen’s car was in the drive. Yvonne’s was not.
She had her feet on the coffee table and did not turn the television down.
“Where is she,” I said.
“She’s done talking to you,” Colleen said.
Renting that board takes a name, a card and a deposit, and Yvonne has not had a card since October.
So now I have to find out WHO signed for it, WHY she believes it, and HOW I keep us in one house until August.
The yellow copy under her heel
The paper was on the coffee table under her foot. The yellow carbon copy off the back of a form, the flimsy kind, and it was only the top half of the sheet — somebody had torn it off along the perforation, so what I had in my hand was a rental agreement for one message trailer, forty-eight hours, from Pilgrim Rest, and nothing below the fold.
The signature line said Yvonne Mattis.
I picked it up off the table. Colleen let me. She kept her eyes on the television while I read the part that mattered, which was the box for the card, and the card was a Visa ending 3312, and the deposit was ninety dollars.
Yvonne does not have a Visa. Yvonne has a debit card with a cat on it that she got at the credit union when she was twenty-two.
“She signed it herself,” Colleen said. “In front of me.”
There is a line on those forms for a phone number and it was not on my half. It was under the tear, on the part somebody had kept, and I found out later the office keeps the whole white copy anyway, contact line and all.
I got my phone out to take a picture of what I did have and Colleen came up off the couch and got the paper out of my hand before the screen even woke, and she was quick about it. She folded it into her back pocket and sat back down and put her feet up again.
“You can call her all you want,” she said. “She’s not going to pick up.”
I stood in my own front room with my jacket still on. Nineteen weeks. A crib in a box in the closet that we paid four hundred toward.
Somebody had used my wife’s name to buy a sign about me. My wife has not had a card since October.
“Where did she get ninety dollars,” I said.
Colleen turned the television up.
October, and the card with the cat on it
We got the duplex on Bardsley in 2022 because it was the only place that would take us with my truck payment, and it is a shotgun layout, and you can hear everything.
That is how I know about October.
Yvonne got a letter from the bank in October and she opened it at the counter with her back to me. Then she called them from the bathroom with the tap running, and when she came out her card was cut in half in the trash on top of the coffee grounds.
She said there was a balance on it she never ran up. She said it was a mix-up, and the bank had closed it while they sorted it, and she would deal with it.
I asked how much. She said it was handled.
That is a thing about Yvonne. When she is scared she gets efficient. She writes lists. She pays things in the exact order they came in the mail and she does not want help doing it, because being the one who does it is how she keeps her feet.
So I let it go, because it was October and the mess was hers to clean up the way she wanted it cleaned, and because we had been married two years and I had never once caught her wrong about money.
Colleen came in March with two suitcases and a wall calendar. She was between places after Dwight, and she said four seventy-five a month, cash, and she paid it in twenties into Yvonne’s hand at the kitchen table on the first, every month, like it was a ceremony.
She did other things too. She filled out the intake forms at the OB office because Yvonne’s hands were shaky that day, and she wrote Yvonne’s name at the bottom of it herself, and the girl at the window took it and never blinked.
I thought that was nice of her. I remember thinking that. I was standing right there holding two coats.
The night after the garage I slept in my truck in my own driveway.
Colleen came out at eleven and knocked on the glass and said, through it, “Go to a hotel like a man.”
I did not have ninety dollars for a hotel. Neither did my wife.
The urn, and what Stan did with his thumb
Monday I went in early because I could not sit in that house.
The trailer was gone by then. What was left was the ruts it made coming off the shoulder and a Coke can somebody threw at it.
Nobody said anything about it to me directly, which was worse. Dale in dispatch gave me the short runs. Two guys who play cards with me at lunch ate at the other table. I found out later somebody had photographed it and sent it around, so it was on phones in three buildings by Sunday.
Mattis is on the front of my shirt. That is the kind of place it is.
Stan came out to the dock while I was strapping a pallet and stood there with his coffee. Fifty-seven, been there since before the roof was redone, and he does not talk unless it costs him something.
“That’s Pilgrim Rest’s board,” he said. “My wife’s on the committee that runs it out. Beverly in the office keeps the book on it.”
I said I knew.
“They write it in a book,” he said. “Carbon book. Whoever takes it, they got the top copy in the office.”
Then he did a thing with his thumb toward the office, and he went back inside, and that was the whole conversation.
I sat in the cab at lunch and wrote the word CARBON on the back of a delivery ticket, because I did not trust myself to keep one thing in my head that week.
I texted Yvonne nine times that day. I called her mother’s house and her mother said she was resting. I sent her a picture of the crib box in the closet, which I am not proud of.
At six that night my phone rang and it was not Yvonne, it was the rental office on Vernon that had our application for the two-bedroom.
“Mr. Mattis, we can’t move forward,” the woman said. “Your co-applicant came back at 511.”
I said that had to be a mistake. I said my wife has never missed a payment on anything in her life.
“There’s an account opened in October,” she said. “Forty-three hundred and change. It’s current, somebody’s paying on it, but it’s a lot of new debt against your income.”
She read me some of it off the screen, the way they do when they are trying to be decent about a no. Retail. A tire place. Two cash advances in the spring, four seventy-five apiece, one in April and one in May.
Four seventy-five. That was the number that came into my kitchen in twenties on the first of the month.
Somebody was paying on it. A hundred and eighty dollars a month, she said, every month since October, never late.
I did the math standing in the parking lot with the phone against my ear. Nine payments. Sixteen hundred and twenty dollars.
That is the crib. That is the deposit. Nine months of somebody paying. Every Saturday I have worked, and then some.
Pilgrim Rest, and a woman named Beverly
Pilgrim Rest is a metal building off the county road with a gravel lot and a sign out front that has the service times in the same orange letters.
I went Wednesday on my lunch in my work polo with the depot logo on the chest, because I wanted her to see what kind of man was asking.
The office is one room with a window unit. The woman at the desk was maybe seventy and had a cardigan on in June and a nameplate that said Beverly, and I knew the name before I read it, because Stan had put it in my ear on the dock.
I told her my name was on their board last Saturday out on Bardsley Road.
She stopped typing.
“I saw it,” she said. “I told Ed we shouldn’t rent it out anymore. That’s not what it’s for.”
I said I did not want anything from the church. I said I wanted to see who filled out the form, because it has my wife’s name on it and my wife was not there.
She got the book out of the bottom drawer. It is a real book, spiral bound, top copies on white with the yellow ones torn out and gone, and the entry was the fourth one down for that week.
Yvonne Mattis. Bardsley Road. Visa ending 3312. Ninety-dollar deposit, returned in cash Monday.
I put my finger on the signature first, because that is what I had come for.
The Y is the same backward-leaning Y that is on the form at the OB office. Whoever wrote it made the two n’s in Yvonne with a little loop, and my wife does not loop anything, my wife writes like a receipt.
I sat there with my finger on that loop for a while with the window unit going.
Then I let my eyes go down the line to the contact box, the one that had been torn off the copy under Colleen’s heel.
I know my wife’s phone number. It has been the same number since we met at a wedding in Coldbrook. It ends in 40.
The number in that book ends in 88, and I know it too, because it is on the wall calendar in my spare room, and it is written on the OB intake form in a hand that leans backward, and it was on my missed calls in March when Colleen wanted a ride from the bus station.
“Ma’am,” I said. “Can I get a copy of this page.”
Beverly looked at the book, and then at the depot logo on my shirt, and then she got up and turned on the copier and stood in front of it with her arms crossed while it warmed up.
“My sister-in-law did something like this to my brother,” she said. “It took him four years.”
She made me two copies. She wrote her name and the date on the back of both of them.
I sat in the truck in that gravel lot with the copies on the seat and called the bank’s fraud line, and I gave them what I had, which was the last four off the copy Beverly had just handed me, our address on Bardsley, and my wife’s date of birth off the appointment card in my wallet. That was enough for them to find it. The man told me the Visa ending 3312 was opened online in October in Yvonne’s name, at our address, with a second cardholder added the same day.
He would not tell me the second cardholder. He said the account holder would have to request the history in writing, and the account holder was my wife, and my wife was at her mother’s and not picking up.
So I drove to her mother’s house and sat at the curb for twenty minutes with the copies on the seat, and I did not go to the door, because the last time somebody in this family put a piece of paper in front of somebody it went up on a trailer in orange letters.
I texted her one line instead. I said, ask them who the second name on 3312 is, and do not ask Colleen.
She read it. It said read at 8:41. She did not answer.
I drove back to Bardsley and put both copies in the toolbox in the garage, under the socket trays.
There was a woman in my spare room with a key.
Tuesday, in my own living room
Yvonne came home Tuesday. Her mother drove her and did not come in, and she sat out front with the engine running the whole time, which tells you what her mother already knew.
Colleen was on the couch with a plate on her knee. Yvonne stood by the door with her keys still in her hand like she was going to have to leave again, and her face was a face I had not seen on her before, and I hated it.
I put three things on the coffee table.
The copy from the carbon book. The printout Dale ran off for me of every stop my truck made on the last eleven Saturdays, with the times and the addresses, because Colleen had told her I was at the motel on Tenth Street and she had told her which Saturday. And the letter from the rental office on Vernon with the 511 on it.
“Read the phone number,” I said.
Nobody touched anything.
Colleen put her plate down on the arm of the couch. “So I made the call for her,” she said. “She was sitting right there. She wanted it done and she couldn’t do it, so I did it, and if you want to make that into some kind of crime, Roland, go ahead, that’s exactly the kind of thing you’d do.”
Yvonne said her name once.
“No, he brought paperwork into the house, he can have the whole thing.” Colleen was up now. “You want to talk about a card? Talk about who was on the phone with the bank in October crying. Talk about who told me to put it in her name so Mom wouldn’t find out about the Dwight thing. You don’t know one single thing about this family, you married into it, you load boxes.”
“Colleen,” Yvonne said.
“Four seventy-five a month I have been handing her. In cash. For a room with a broken window.”
“You handed me my own money back,” Yvonne said.
That is when it got quiet.
Yvonne sat down on the arm of the chair because she cannot stand for long now. She had her hand flat on her stomach and she was talking to the carpet.
She said the card was hers on the paperwork and Colleen’s in the world. She said the bank closed her own card in October because of the first mess, and Colleen swore the new one was for a truck part and a phone bill and she would clear it by Christmas. She said she has been paying a hundred and eighty a month on it since October out of the envelope in the drawer.
Out of my Saturdays. She said that part out loud. Out of your Saturdays.
I asked her the only thing I actually wanted to know, which was why she believed it.
“Because she told me you’d stop,” Yvonne said. “She said men who work that many Saturdays aren’t working.”
Colleen said we were both being ridiculous. Colleen said she would be out by the first. Colleen said, and I am going to remember this in a nursing home someday, that she was the only one in this house who had ever protected anybody.
Then she said, “You put in that report, Yvonne, and I go to jail. Your kid’s aunt goes to jail.”
Yvonne looked up at her. “Then I guess she does,” she said.
Colleen took the wall calendar off the nail on her way out. She left the two suitcases in the hall and came back for them Thursday when I was at work.
June, and the deck
Yvonne signed the affidavit at the credit union on a Friday morning with a notary who had a cold. It took eleven minutes. She wrote her sister’s name in the box that says who used the account, and then she went out to the truck and sat with the door open and her feet on the running board.
We are staying on Bardsley. The two-bedroom on Vernon went to somebody else the week we called. The crib is up in the corner of our room now between the dresser and the window, and the box is flattened out behind the couch, and there is no deposit for anything anymore, because sixteen hundred and twenty dollars of it is on a Visa I have never once held in my hand. The bank says nine to twelve months to sort. I still take the Saturdays.
Her mother has not called since May.
Sunday I got the mower deck off the garage floor. Took two hours and I had the belt on backward once. When it turned over I stood there in the driveway with it running at half throttle for no reason, just to hear it, and half the block probably thought I was cutting grass at eight in the morning.
I came in with my hands black. Yvonne was at the sink with the water going, and she turned around and held something up over the counter, the way she held the test up at the end of February, both hands, chest high.
It was the photo from the twenty-week scan.
“He’s got your chin,” she said. “Poor kid.”
If this one got to you, hand it to somebody who has let family move into the spare room.
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