She’s standing at the bus stop wearing Dominic’s jacket.
Not one like it. His. The rip at the left cuff where he caught it on a chain-link fence when we were teenagers. The ink stain on the pocket from the pen that exploded the week before he died. My legs stop working.
Six years. Six years of his stuff in boxes in my closet, and I know every piece of it the way I know my own face.
Four months ago, I gave that jacket to Goodwill.
I’m Renee. I’ve been cleaning out grief in pieces – a drawer here, a shelf there – because doing it all at once would finish me. Dom was twenty-nine when the accident happened. I was twenty-seven. Our mom still can’t say his name out loud.
The girl wearing his jacket looks maybe twenty-two. Dark hair, his same sharp jaw, his same way of standing with her weight on one hip like the world owes her a minute.
My stomach dropped.
I crossed the street without thinking.
“Excuse me,” I said, and my voice came out wrong. “Where did you get that jacket?”
She looked at me the way people look at strangers who are clearly not okay. “Thrift store,” she said. “Like two weeks ago.”
I asked which one. She named it. The one three blocks from my apartment, the one I drove past every single day.
“Why?” she said.
I told her it belonged to my brother. That he was gone.
She started to take it off right there on the sidewalk and I said no, no, please don’t, and I don’t know why I said that.
She put it back on. We stood there.
Then she said, “I found something in the pocket. I was going to throw it away but I kept it. I don’t know why.”
She opened her bag.
It was a folded piece of paper.
Dom’s handwriting.
“It has a name on it,” she said. “Is that you?”
What Was On That Paper
My name. And a phone number I didn’t recognize. And underneath that, four words in Dom’s handwriting.
Call her. She’s real.
I read it three times standing on that sidewalk. The girl, whose name turned out to be Priya, watched me read it and didn’t say anything. She had the good sense not to.
Dom had big handwriting, all caps, like he was always slightly shouting. He pressed hard on the pen. You could feel the indentations on the back of the paper. I ran my thumb over them.
“Do you know what it means?” Priya asked.
I didn’t. Not yet.
The number had a 614 area code. Columbus. Dom had lived there for about eight months before he died, trying to make something work with a music production thing that never quite got off the ground. We talked every Sunday. He never mentioned anyone named anything that the number might belong to.
I stood there so long the bus came and went. Priya missed it. She didn’t seem to care.
“I almost didn’t keep it,” she said again. She kept saying it, like she was still convincing herself she’d done the right thing. “It was just a piece of paper. I thought it was a receipt or something.”
But she’d unfolded it and seen the name. And she’d kept it.
The Jacket, and Why I Let It Go
Four months ago I was having what I privately call a Good Day, which is not the same as an actually good day. It’s the kind of day where the grief gets quiet enough that you can function at a level that resembles a normal person. You can open drawers. You can make decisions.
I’d gone into the closet with a trash bag and a box, and I’d told myself: just the closet. Nothing else. Just make a little room.
Dom’s boxes were stacked on the left side. I’d moved them from my mom’s house after she stopped being able to look at them. I was the keeper of the boxes. That was my job.
I wasn’t going to touch them. I was just going to do my own stuff.
But the jacket was hanging on the rod, not in a box. I’d kept it out because I used to sometimes wear it around the apartment when things got bad. It was a men’s large. It swallowed me. It smelled like him for about two years and then it just smelled like a jacket.
On that Good Day, I took it down and I folded it and I put it in the Goodwill bag and I drove to the drop-off before I could change my mind. The woman at the counter took the bag without looking up.
I cried in the parking lot for twenty minutes. Then I drove home.
I didn’t check the pockets.
That’s the part I can’t stop thinking about. I never checked the pockets. I’d worn that jacket probably forty times in six years and I never once put my hands in the pockets. I don’t know why. Maybe because they were his pockets. Maybe because I didn’t want to find something and I didn’t want to find nothing.
The Number
I didn’t call it that day. I took a photo of the paper, gave the original back to Priya, and then stood on the sidewalk not knowing how to end a conversation like this.
She gave me her number. Said to let her know what I found out, if I wanted to. She said it like she understood she was only a small part of this, which she was, and which was generous of her.
I walked home. The whole three blocks I kept pulling out my phone and looking at the photo of Dom’s handwriting.
Call her. She’s real.
Her. So a woman. Someone Dom wanted to make sure I’d call, which meant he wasn’t certain I’d believe she existed without that specific reassurance.
I sat on my kitchen floor, which is a thing I do when I’m overwhelmed. The floor is always an option. I sat there with my back against the cabinet under the sink and I called the number.
It rang four times. I was already composing the voicemail in my head.
Someone picked up.
“Hello?”
A woman. Older than me. Tired-sounding.
I said, “I’m sorry to call out of nowhere. My name is Renee. I think you might have known my brother, Dominic.”
Silence. Long enough that I thought the call had dropped.
Then: “Oh my god.”
Sandra
Her name was Sandra Pruitt. She was forty-four. She lived in a suburb of Columbus called Westerville, in a house she’d bought with her ex-husband and kept in the divorce.
Dom had done some recording work for her son, Kevin, who was trying to be a rapper at nineteen and was, by Sandra’s description, not going to be a rapper. Dom had come to the house a handful of times. He and Sandra had talked.
“He was easy to talk to,” she said, which, yes. That was Dom. He’d talk to anyone. He’d talk to your mom at a party and your mom would love him and you’d have to drag him away.
“We talked a few times,” Sandra said. “After Kevin stopped doing the music stuff. Dom would still call sometimes. Just to check in.”
She said it carefully. I could hear her trying to figure out what I knew and what I didn’t.
“He never mentioned you,” I said, and I tried not to make it sound like an accusation. I don’t know if I succeeded.
“I know,” she said. “He said you’d think it was weird. That’s a thirty-year age gap, you know. He was worried you’d think – ” She stopped.
“I wouldn’t have thought anything,” I said, which was probably a lie but was also the right thing to say.
They weren’t together. She told me that clearly and I believed her. It wasn’t that kind of thing. But it was something. A real friendship that Dom had kept quiet because he didn’t know how to explain it and because he was twenty-nine and sometimes twenty-nine-year-olds are stupid about what they think needs explaining.
He’d told her about me. A lot about me.
“He said you were the funniest person he’d ever met,” Sandra said. “He said you didn’t know it.”
I pressed my hand flat against the kitchen floor. The linoleum was cold.
“He wrote your number down,” I said. “In his jacket pocket. With a note telling me to call you.”
She was quiet again.
“He told me he was going to do that,” she said. “I told him that was a strange thing to do. He said, ‘Sandra, Renee is going to need people, and I’m not always going to be around to make sure she has them.’ I thought he was being dramatic.”
The accident was six weeks later.
What Dom Knew That I Didn’t
He knew I was bad at keeping people. That’s the thing no one says at funerals but it was true. I lose touch. I let friendships go quiet. After Dom died, I went down to maybe four people who I’d call in an emergency, and two of them were family.
Dom had watched me do this my whole life. He’d watched me let good people drift away because I got too tired or too sad or too inside my own head. He used to call me out on it.
“You’re going to be the loneliest person at your own birthday,” he said once, and I threw a dish towel at him.
He wasn’t wrong.
So he wrote a name and a number on a piece of paper and he put it in his jacket pocket. The jacket he knew I’d keep. He probably figured I’d find it eventually, on some day when I finally worked up the nerve to go through his pockets.
He didn’t account for Goodwill.
He didn’t account for Priya, who unfolded a scrap of paper that wasn’t hers and kept it for reasons she still can’t explain, and wore a dead man’s jacket to a bus stop on a Tuesday morning.
Where It Is Now
I’ve talked to Sandra six times since then. Actual phone calls, not texts. She’s funny in a dry, tired way. She grows tomatoes and hates her neighbor’s dog and has opinions about local politics that she delivers like she’s reading a verdict.
She knew Dom in a way I didn’t. That part is strange. There are stories she has about him that I’ve never heard, and I’m still deciding how I feel about that. Mostly good. A little bit like finding a room in a house you thought you knew completely.
The note is in a frame on my kitchen wall. I had it framed the week after I got it, before I could lose it or convince myself it wasn’t real.
Call her. She’s real.
I called Priya too, a few days after the bus stop. Told her what I’d found. She said, “That’s insane,” and then, “Are you okay?” and I said yes, which was only partially true, and she said “okay but actually though” and I told her the real answer.
She’s twenty-two, and she’s a stranger, and she asked the right question.
Dom would have liked her.
I kept his jacket. Priya gave it back before I could stop her, just showed up at my apartment building with it folded under her arm. I told her it looked better on her. She said she’d already bought a different one.
It’s hanging in my closet now. On the rod, not in a box. Not for wearing anymore.
Just there.
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